Tuesday, March 31, 2009
How do you sleep at night?
For all that you have done
For all the damage from your hands has come
For all the tears you have caused to run
For all the fears you have caused the very young
For all the ties that bound you have undone
For all the lives you have wreaked havoc upon
For a father stolen for one not even his own
Pray tell me O Evil One!
How do you sleep at night?
...in dreamless oblivion, I suppose...
because a soul and conscience
you have none.
Monday, March 30, 2009

words
spoken
draw blood
from already
battered hearts
words
unspoken
draw life
from already
drained souls
thoughts
spoken
dissipate into
echoes
and
nothingness
thoughts
unspoken
shackle
imprison
distress
oppress
torment
vex
subdue
crush
and
paralyze
the spirit
mind
and body.
and emotions
expressed
repressed
so complex
joy
so intimately linked to sorrow
trust
worth not even a penny
loyalty
sold for but only a penny
and love
what is love?
but
thinly veneered
contempt
and
barely irrepressible
unsuppressable
passionate
all consuming
hate.
an-nimr
"It is authentically reported on the authority of Abu Hurairah that the Messenger of Allah
said: "Seek what benefits you, and seek help only from Allah and do not lose heart. If any adversity comes to you, do not say: "If I had only acted in such-and-such a way, it would have been such-and-such;" but instead, say: "Allah has decreed (it) and what He willed, He has done," for verily, (the word) (if) opens the way for the work of Satan." 1
Because Islam calls mankind to that which leads to success, prosperity and betterment of society, Allah's Messenger
commanded the Muslims to take part in jihad in Allah's cause; and in order that they might attain the aforementioned blessings - in this life and the Hereafter – he ordered them to accept calamities - which are all from Allah's Qadr - with equanimity, and not to become depressed or open the door to regret or blame by saying: "If only I had done such-and-such a thing, I might have avoided this outcome;" for to do so will lead to anger and despair, and these are the works of the devil. Instead he guided them to that which is better and more worthy, which is to say: "Allah has decreed (it) and what He willed He has done."
Online source
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Rabbi Ya Rahman (My Lord, O Merciful One)
Yassirlee Amree (Grant me ease in my affairs)
Wam nahnil ghufraan (Bless me with forgiveness)
Washrahlee sadree (And open up my chest)
Warzuqnil Eman (Grant me strong faith)
Nawwarlee Qalbee (Enlighten my heart)
Waj al lil Qur'an (And make the Qur'an to me)
Yahdee lee aqlee (A guidance for my intellect)
Thursday, March 26, 2009
My first crush...
He liked to walk around the room as he taught, holding that ruler in his hand...and one day, as my best friend Aween and I were staring at him, mesmerised as usual, with a thousand and one sordid teen fantasies running through our pubescent minds...he suddenly stopped. In front of us. I held my breath.
He looked down at our tables and just stared at Aween's open pencil case and seeing the word
"Je t'aime" she had stenciled inside just for fun (she went to school in Paris when younger and was fluent in French)...he smiled at her and said, "Merci Beaucoup"...what the hell for...we never knew.
But I was so jealous, because he spoke to her...in French! Darn...
Aween, I hate you!
Aween...
I remember when we took off to Kuantan and Kemaman in my distant-memory-of-a-beautiful '89 230CE Mercedes, leaky radiator and all... after a particularly bad episode, the first time I ever left my kids (I missed them the second I got on the hiway and was depressed throughout the trip)...we stopped at the Karak R&R, and the Chinese woman manning the kedai runcit we bought drinks from told me, "Haiya! Apasal lu kasi lu punya anak pakai ini macam! Manyak seksi wooo!"
"Woi! Auntie! Dia bukan saya punya anak la! Ini saya punya kawan! Aween, lain kali hang keluaq ngan aku, hang pakai guni boleh tak??"
Cepat get fat and motherly like the rest of us okay!
Cikgu Karim...
Oh yes...he was a real hunk...tall, bermisai, nice wavy, short hair we just wanted to run our fingers through...because he was so handsome, I flunked my Physics that year...I couldn't hear a word he was saying...the theories all became one muffled sound in the distance, so transfixed was I...hahaha.
And that was only a crush.
Love, I last heard, does more damage than flunking a test.
Anyways...
I'm in the mood...
to make...
banana pancakes tomorrow...
topped with yoghurt, or maybe drizzled with honey...
and butter...lots of butter.
Bananas...
They remind me of the time I had kodok pisang made over dapur kayu at his kampung when we first got married. Just me and him, and his wan. Very nice lady, arwah wan...very sweet, very old...tangan orang tua...kodok pisang on a dewy, misty kampung morning with hot tea, sitting on the pangkin...that was heavenly.
The first raya we went back to his kampung almost 16 years ago, (I think...I stopped counting...haha)...was also memorable. We had a tiff before that...and didn't talk all the way from KL to Tanjung Ipoh. Then we found, we had missed the last bus to Kampung Panglang and had to walk...I don't know how many kilometres or how many hours we walked in the pitch darkness, passing graves and secondary forests...but since we we supposed to be fighting, I couldn't ask...are we there yet??? I just silently followed him for what seemed like forever, until we reached kampung.
Hahaha...that was one longggg walk, I tell ya....
Wednesday, March 25, 2009

I like this cat.
Kids and I had Lilo and Stitch.
And Lilo's kittens,
Violet,
Fluffy,
Blackie.
Lilo - died
Violet - died
Fluffy - died
Blackie - died
Stitch - died
They all died.
There are many dead bodies in my garden.
Of cats...I mean...
and hamsters
turtles
and....
and....
man, I gotta go pee...
been holding it since 4 am.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Of Ugly Cowards
You seem to know so much about me, that I could guess it's one of two people, one whose womanhood has expired (sadly) and the other whose womanhood never existed (also sad). Wonder what it makes them then?
Sad little excuses for women? (Includes the men with expired manhoods too, if I am guessing right, from the current pool of pathetic people I suspect).
But one can only guess, because cowards hide behind many faces... they have to...because theirs are too ugly and evil even for them to look in the mirror at themselves.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Of Memorable Quotes
It is no secret we have to change."
Dato Seri Najib Tun Razak on UMNO's need to clean up its act.
(ummm...duh?)
Okayyyy...
we have Ali Rustam still as the CM (front paged today, smiling, tak tebal muka pun...)
we have Khairy guilty but let off (can you share your secret to being richly unemployed, please?),
we have Mat Taib listing his feats (kahwin lari, breaking laws in foreign countries) compared to his "I no speaka Inglis",
we have Khir Toyo looking prettier than moi (with accusations of tempe-laundering still over his head)
we have Mukhriz (I got rich all by my own pretty-self, honest...no strings attached... yeah, we believe you).
and we also have Rahim Thamby Chik (remember how an underaged girl who was raped had to be "rehabilitated" while someone else got to go for umrah?)
And then there's someone who just can't stay in the kitchen and bake cookies or something like the rest of us....
Yup...Umno has cleaned up its act.
Broom please!
Me thinks they should take this medicine prescribed for some other crooks in order to REALLY heal UMNO. (link stolen from a dashing pirate's guide to making sense of life's puzzling puzzles...)
This old guard here meanwhile, rightly thinks the UMNO of today has lost the plot ie: gila uang!!!
Orang dulu berjuang,
Pertama hilang, kedua terbilang
Orang sekarang berjuang,
Pertama cari menang,
Sudah menang cari wang
Lepas itu, jatuhkan orang,
Hidup di awang-awang
Akhirnya jatuh terlentang
Aziz Tapa
Saturday, March 21, 2009
The United Nations special rapporteur on human rights in the Palestinian territories has said Israel's military offensive on Gaza "would seem to constitute a war crime of the greatest magnitude under international law".
Richard Falk called the 22-day bombardment a "massive assault on a densely populated urbanised setting", with the civilian population subjected to "an inhumane form of warfare that kills, maims and inflicts mental harm".
His findings were written in a report submitted to the UN Human Rights Council on Thursday.
Islamic and African countries backed by China, Cuba and Russia have a majority in the 47-member forum.
Neither Israel nor US, its principal ally, are members.
Falk said the Geneva Convention required forces at war to be able to distinguish between military targets and civilians.
If that is not possible, then "launching the attacks is inherently unlawful".
Israel launched its offensive on the Hamas-run Gaza Strip in December saying it aimed to stop rocket fire by Hamas into southern Israel.
A ceasefire was declared on January 18 after the offensive left about 1,400 Palestinians dead, many of them women and children.
Three Israeli civilians and 10 soldiers were killed during the offensive.
Blockade 'a crime'
Falk said that the Gaza border blockade also was not legally justified and may represent a "crime against peace", a principle established at the Nuremberg trials of Nazi war criminals.
Israeli soldiers say killing civilians 'allowed'
Sealing the border, denying people the right to flee the war zone as refugees, may also be a crime against humanity, his report said.
He said Israel's violations included alleged "targeting of schools, mosques and ambulances" during the offensive, and its use of weapons including white phosphorus.
He also condemned the firing of rockets at civilian targets in southern Israel by Hamas.
Falk called for an independent experts group to investigate possible war crimes committed by both the Israeli military and Hamas.
He recommended witness testimonies as well as explanations from Israeli and Palestinian military commanders.
Falk gave the same death toll from Israel's offensive in December and January - 1,434 Palestinians, 960 of those civilians - as the Palestinian Human Rights Centre.
Israel disputes the figures and accuses Hamas fighters in Gaza of using civilians as human shields.
Falk said Israel's allegation should be investigated.
Israeli rejection
Daniel Seaman, a spokesman for the Israeli government, rejected Falk's assertions, saying that his report contained no truth or legitimacy.
"The soldiers, questioned by our military authorities, are saying these [in the report] are not first-person eyewitness accounts ... these are stories they heard second hand," Seaman said.
He said every military in the world "at times makes mistakes".
But "if we find our soldiers violated the code of conduct [in war], they will be dealt with, with the utmost severity of our laws", Seaman said.
"We do not need a Richard Falk, who is notorious for his anti-Israeli position, to tell us how to conduct ourselves."
Falk said the UN Security Council might set up an ad hoc tribunal to establish accountability for war crimes in Gaza, noting Israel has not signed the Rome statutes establishing the International Criminal Court.
He was refused entry into Israel two weeks before the offensive started, preventing him from a planned mission to Gaza. In the report, he said the refusal had set an "unfortunate precedent" for treatment of a special rapporteur.
Speaking to Al Jazeera from Santa Barbara, California, Falk said he is not optimistic that his report will lead to concrete action.
"There is a lack of political will on the part of several major governments," he said.
"There has all along been a pervasive double standard with respect to the implementation of international criminal law.
"It has been applied to non-Western countries in the south and has exempted actors associated with Europe, North America and, generally, the north."
Rules of engagement
Falk's criticism came as reports surfaced in the Israeli media suggesting that Israeli forces killed Palestinian civilians under what may have been lax rules of engagement during the Gaza offensive.
Quoting Israeli soldiers who fought in the offensive, the Haaretz newspaper reported on Thursday that soldiers had ransacked and destroyed civilian property.
The soldiers' testimony, made at a course at Oranim Academic College in Tivon, runs counter to the Israeli army's claims that troops observed a high level of moral behaviour during the operation.
The testimonies include a description by an infantry squad leader in which he relates an incident where an Israeli sharpshooter shot a Palestinian mother and her two children, Haaretz reported.
If proved, the soldiers' testimonies could contribute to war crimes charges against Israel.
Al Jazeera's Hoda Abdel Hamid, reporting from Gaza, said that there was no doubt in the minds of Gazans that Israel committed war crimes during the assault.
"There is a certain level of satisfaction that these stories are coming out and that a body like the UN is saying the same things that they are saying," she said.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Sample Observations of Amputations
And I got to thinking about a friend.(From the Bandolier: 'Evidence based thinking about healthcare"):
Average
"A measure for the central tendency of a sample of observations. The term average is most often used for the arithmetic mean, but sometimes also for the median. For instance, suppose the yearly income of five people is $50,000, $80,000, $100,000, $120,000, and $650,000. The arithmetic mean is the sum of these values divided by their number, that is, $200,000. The median is obtained by ranking the values (as above) and taking the one in the middle, that is, $100,000. When the distribution is asymmetric, as it is often with income, the mean and the median are not the same, and it can be the case that most people earn less than the mean.
Another example is with legs. Most people (99.9%) have two legs. But some have had amputations or accidents, so the average number of legs in the population is less than two. Therefore 99.9% of the population have more legs than average." (Should I be laughing here? Capt Calico Jack?)
She was hit by a drunk driver, on her engagement day, as she was unloading some stuff by the Ulu Klang Highway, near Kampung Pasir. As she stood at the boot of her small Kia, with two others, she suddenly heard a loud screech, turned and saw this BMW coming straight at her, smashing her in between the two cars. A drunk. A drunk Iranian came out of the car, blubbering, asking for her forgiveness as she lay on road in shock, unable to move her crushed legs.
A drunk driver who had previously hurt someone else, we later found out, but was let off by the police...he is a rich young man. The rich can buy their freedom. They can also buy people off.
Well, this time he couldn't buy my friend new legs. She lost one, and the other is shattered, and she faces a long route to rehabilitation and recovery. But she is a strong woman. With a loving and accepting fiancee, and supportive friends and family, she will make it.
When I visited her at the hospital, the doctors were fighting to save her legs, and I saw, how the crushed, bleeding and putrefying more seriously injured one was making her so ill. They didn't have a choice. They finally had to cut it off to save her life.
Recovery is a long, winding and challenging road ahead for her. And then you have the "phantom limb pain".
In layman's term:
From the Wikipedia: The term “phantom limb” was first coined by American neurologist Silas Weir Mitchell in 1871 (Halligan, 2002). Mitchell described that “thousands of spirit limbs were haunting as many good soldiers, every now and then tormenting them” (Bittar et al, 2005). However, in 1551, French military surgeon Ambroise Paré recorded the first documentation of phantom limb pain when he reported that, “For the patients, long after the amputation is made, say that they still feel pain in the amputated part” (Bittar et al, 2005).It says here that:
"If phantom limb sensations are normal then so too, alas, is phantom limb pain. This occurs in a majority of those who lose their limbs. (1) In fact, limbs do not need to be lost; it also occurs in conditions in which the brain is disconnected from the body, such as peripheral nerve injuries and after spinal cord injury, when an area becomes insentient (and usually paralysed).
The pain is described in various ways: burning, aching, 'as if the hand is being crushed in a vice,' etc. Such words, however, cannot fully encompass the experience of living with such a pain. In those with chronic pain after spinal cord injury it is frequently the pain rather than the paralysis that interferes with work and social life. One woman has said that paralysis does not stop life, but pain may. "
One cannot help though but draw an analogy from all this... to marriage and divorce.
Gangrene and amputations.
The chronic pain of a missing part of you.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Arshad Gamiet/Royal Holloway College/Univ. of London /UK. 30April99
from Khutbahbank.org.uk
Al hamdu lillahi rabbil ‘alameen. Was salaatu was salaamu ‘alaa ashrafil mursaleen. Sayidinaa wa nabi’na wamoulanaa Muhammadin wa’ala aalihee wa sahbihee wasallim.
My Dear Brothers and Sisters
Today’s khutbah is about reviving the Individual, so that we can become more effective as a community. It is based on an article by Khaled Is-haque, and was published in a magazine called "the Muslim" some years ago.
Individuals committed to serving Islam, are like building bricks fused together to form a solid wall. Each individual, like a brick, must be strong and capable of withstanding the loads and stresses that it is called upon to bear. Just as each brick must be fully burnt and purified in a kiln and pass certain minimum standards, so too an individual has to go through a process of training and development in order to be an effective ambassador of Islam. But what is involved in this construction of the individual? What has the individual got to do in order to prepare for this God-given role? These are fundamental questions – because, a pre- requisite to the revival of Muslim society is a revival of the individual or the self.
The starting point in this process is what the Qur'an calls the qalb – the human heart. Look at yourself and you will find inside you a whole universe - emotions, desires, urges, instincts - which motivate you from within. The qalb does not mean the pump which pushes blood around the body -- it means the centre or locus of the personality which is pumping motivations, desires and urges and which makes us do what we want to do. The Qur'an goes on to explain that this is the key to ourselves. Our success depends not on what we are physically, nor on what we do, but on what lies at the centre of our personality.
The Qur'án declares that
"Except the one who comes to Allah with a sound heart on the day of Judgement,"
no-one will be successful in the eyes of Alláh. Another hadíth of the Prophet - peace be upon him – says,:
"Beware, there is a piece of flesh in the human body. If it is right, then the whole body is right and sound; and if it is corrupted then the whole body is corrupted. Look, this is the 'heart'."
According to the Qur'an, the basis of corruption stems from within ourselves. The social institutions may be corrupt, there may be exploitation and abuse in the economic sphere and politics, but the basis of all these diseases lies inside our heart.
The Qur'an says 'The disease (is not somewhere in the body, it) is inside their heart."
What it is that stops man from seeing right and doing right, that turns him blind?
The Qur'an explains 'It is not the eyes which go blind but it is the heart inside you which goes blind."
This then is the basic starting point for any [Islamic] Movement, and any effort to improve human conditions. It should be our starting point. [It is] - to purify the heart and then summon it to the service of Alláh, through service to mankind, whether it be in a professional career, in government, in political institutions or in economic ventures. For us who are committed to Islam as a Movement and who are involved in the path of Jihad, attention should always remain riveted on keeping the heart - the centre of our personality - pure. Our whole attention must be focused on this continuous struggle. All the rites that have been prescribed by the Qur'an reach out to purify the deepest regions of our self.
The Qur'an states "It is not the flesh and blood that reaches Allah, it is the taqwa within your heart that finds acceptance. "
If the individual is the primary building brick of society, then the heart is its foundation within each man. The important question is therefore how should we set about preparing this most basic of building bricks. First we must understand that the 'heart' must submit totally and exclusively to its Creator. It cannot be compartmentalised - we cannot dedicate one piece of it to Allah, and another to some other god, like our wealth, our status, our career, our families and so on.
There is a beautiful verse in the Qur'an, which throws light on the absurdity of such a situation. It tells about some of the Mushrikin [those who associate partners with Alláh] who sacrifice animals and then say that one part of the animal is for Allah and another is for their other idols. Then it asks us to remember that whatever is assigned to Allah is also, in reality, assigned to the idols, because Allah does not accept something divided. He is One, indivisible, and wants us to be undivided in service to Him. So long as we remain divided within ourselves, so long as our heart lies in a hundred places, so long as our eyes are set in a hundred directions, so long as our destination is not one but many, we shall never be able to achieve that first condition for building a strong and pure Islamic personality.
innalláha wa malaaikata yusallúna alan nabi. Yá ay yuhal latheena ámanu sallú alayhi wasalli mú tas leema. Allahumma salli alá Muhammad, wa ala áli Muhammad, kama salayta ala Ibrahim, wa ala ali Ibrahim. Allahumma barik ala Muhammad, kama barakta ala Ibrahim, wa ala ali ibrahim. Fil ála meen, innaka hameedun majeed.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
The Purpose of Creation by Dr Abu Ameenah Bilal Phillips
From the perspective of humankind, the question "Why did God create man?" implies "For what purpose was man created?" In the final revelation, this question is answered without any ambiguity. Humans are first informed by God that every human being is born with an innate consciousness of God. In Chapter al-A'raaf, Allaah said:
"[Remember] when your Lord extracted from the loins of Adam's children their descendants and made them testify [saying]: 'Am I not your Lord?'They said: 'Yes, we testify to it.'[This was] in case you say on the Day of Judgment: 'We were unaware of this'. Or you say: 'It was our ancestors who worshipped others besides Godand we are only their descendants. Will you then destroy us for what those liars did?' "
(Qur'aan, 7:172-3)
The Prophet (Peace and Blessings be upon him) explained that when Allaah created Adam, He took from him a covenant at a place called Na'maan on the 9th day of the 12th month. He then extracted from Adam all of his descendants who would be born until the end of the world, generation after generation, and spread them out before Him to take a covenant from them also. He spoke to them, face to face, making them bear witness that He was their Lord. Consequently, every human being is responsible for belief in God, which is imprinted on each and every soul. It is based on this inborn belief that Allaah defined the purpose of humankind's creation in Chapter ath-Thaariyaat :
"I have created the jinn and humankind only for My worship."
(Qur'aan, 51:56)
Monday, March 16, 2009
For her
I was at the doctor's today, at Plaza 138, adjoining Hotel Maya. Walking through the carpark, I looked out to the Ampang Muslim Cemetery behind. It's a lovely cemetery (the grainy picture didn't capture it well), mainly due to the huge old, shady trees and the many matured frangipani trees with their abundant white flowers. It looked very peaceful. I prayed that those waiting for the Final Hour there, were at peace too.I miss you very much
it has been 12 long, tumultuous years
you seem like a long lost dream...
we had after all
been together for a lifetime...
it has been rough
dark
lonely
and
confusing
with no way out of the maze at times
but through it all
I still catch glimpses of you
and know that you are still there somewhere
and that
gives me hope
maybe one day
we will be together
and complete
again...if not in life
then in the sweet respite of death
and beyond...
where illusions
have no place
anymore.
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Friday, March 13, 2009
Pok Pet
By the parents of this kelab kelas. A club set up apparently for parents to get involved in helping the kids (or school?) do a good job in the coming UPSR. I'm wondering why as an AJK, I have no idea of any meetings and how they come up with the tuition/extra classes schedules. I thought we agreed at the initial meeting NOT to hold classes on Sundays and school holidays too as some highly competitive and enthusiastic parents ("oh...anak you tak pernah lagi UPSR ye...patutlah you tak tau") pressed for. No wonder, they didn't call me for subsequent meets... There WERE other parents who felt that Sundays should be reserved for family and relaxation too!
And so what. The UPSR is not a neurosurgery licensing exam. Yes, I want my daughter to do well, strive to be her best, excel at whatever she does because that is what Allah wants of each of us, be the best we can be...BUT not merely be a statistic so that the school gets accolades. I would rather the school hold extra hafalan Quran classes, extra Arabic classes, elocution, public speaking and other fun learning activities than merely extra tuition classes to fulfill the UPSR sekolah cemerlang or whatever agenda. They ARE kids. Let them be kids lah for even a bloody day.
For what we pay...for this private Islamic school...shouldn't she be getting extra attention IN class? Or during school days? Ater school I can take, but weekends and holidays too? Are the teachers/schools doing their jobs well then in the first place that we NEED all these extra classes? Much like cramming instead of actually learning something to be gained over the long term. Well, at 300 per kid per month...these private schools should know better than me, eh?
And as for those parents who "suck up" for extra attention. Oh well. Lots of idiotic parents at that school. I once commented on some of the teachers' habit of pinching, pulas perut and whacking kids for inane reasons, and the suckers-up got their panties and spendars in a bunch (there were some who agreed with me, but usually the intelligent ones like these are far and few) and one woman even twisted all my words and her carbon-copy of an evil spawn went around the school telling her friends how Sakinah's mum called her mum "babi hutan". No idiots. I called you people IDIOTS. Because an innocent teguran to the teachers from me, some teachers to be precise (coz there ARE some great teachers there) spiralled into an ugly episode when you pendengkis poured petrol onto the issue and got personal with me. Remember. I called you IDIOT bukan babi hutan... don't insult the poor animals... Sheesh...can't even read my emails properly ker? Cuna tanye Ustaz yang baik tu apa I tulis... Batu api betul. Mak borek anak rintik (my peribahasa).
On to number 2...
I get pissed when I get a question like the one I got from a certain YB at the same school, whom I once I asked to help a woman who insisted on prostituting herself in full view of the greater Wangsa Maju area...he asked me one day (maybe it was just an innocent query, but I hated it)..."oh, you yang ade blog tu ye?"
Me: "Ya...YB amacam dengan pompuan tu?"( Dalam hati: So what, its just a bloody blog)
YB:"Tak pe kita biar dulu...slow2. ( Me: ??) Banyak masa you nak blog eh?" ( Dalam hati YB: Tak de buat apa2 ke kat umah ke you ni, terkangkang jer banyak tul masa lapang?)
Me: "Tak de lah...Saya kerja online, research online... sementara tu nak relak, saya tulislah apa2...post la apa2 saya nak share"(Dalam hati: "Oh shut up..suka hati aku ler...do I ask you to pay me?? Why does everyone ask me that? It's my own blog, my own life and catharsis laaaa...stop asking me stupid question leh tak..and why the heck do I have to justify everything anyway to anybody! 30 minutes ker, 3 jam ker...ade I kacau orang???)
Number 3...
Why la school... you keep showing videos of suffering in Palestine to the kids...balik2 tu sahaja, only that...I have the utmost respect and affinity for the Palestinians and FEEL for them SO much, but please also expose the suffering elsewhere in this world too...aren't Muslims supposed to help all the oppressed and in need?? I remember when my daughter went around collecting donations at school for the Cyclone Nargis victims in Burma, the principal sort of had to qualify the effort with a comment about derma for Palestine. Of course la that goes without saying laaaa...dah memang ade Tabung Palestine hari2 kek situ...just because the Burmese are non-Muslims, Allah cakap tak yah tolong? Pedulikan orang tu? Itu ke ajaran nabi Muhammad SAW? Maaflah kalau saya salah tafsir komen tersebut....
Number 4...
Can you people at school STOP showing the horror dramatization of seksa kubur complete with lightning and special effects of a booming voice going 'MA RABBUKA!!!", siap dengan bau kapur barus, tanah kubur merah etc...Ceh! I want my kids to LOVE HIM and fear His Displeasure out of LOVE for HIM not be terrified of meeting Him and hating death laaaa.... macam paria (no offense to Indians laaa) betul drama...lepaih tu nak kutuk India dramatik...dua kali lima jugak. Tak dak langsung ka cerita yang elok sikit buat anak2 tengok positive side...bukan semua kubur ade ulaq besaq la...sheesh...tak boleh ka pulak cerita the joys and promise of Paradise...balasan orang2 yang berbuat baik, yang beriman padaNya... cerita pasal His Infinite Mercy and Blessings...Anak saya sampai sakit2 perut kecut tengok documentary macam drama siul tu semua....siap nak practise apa nak jawab kat Malaikat dalam kubur.
MANA BOLEH PRACTISE MENDE2 NIH!!!!
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Use of English: The key is training teachers
By ARIF CHRISTOPHER BELL, Kuala Lumpur
2009/03/09
I REFER to the letter "Let's work with the ministry" (NST, March 3) from Noor Azimah Abdul Rahim of the Parents Action Group for Education (Page). I may be able to contribute several ideas on how we can collaborate with the Education Ministry.
I am an education consultant and was responsible for developing the Project to Improve English in Rural Schools (Piers) programme, which the writer mentioned, while I was working with the CfBT Education Trust.
Since January 2006, the project has shown that even students in rural areas, be they Malays, Chinese, Indians, Iban or Kadazan, are able to learn Maths and Science successfully in English.
The key to making this well-founded policy successful is to (re)train the teachers involved.
I would like to make the following points based on my experience of working as a teacher and education manager, both internationally and locally, since 1977:
- Students in the rural areas are able to learn Maths and Science effectively in English if the subjects are taught well.
In fact, they can learn better in English as they have to pay more attention to understanding the subjects. It also helps when teachers standardise the use of the language to teach the subjects.
Moreover, the quality materials and teaching aids available for learning Maths and Science in English are unmatched in any language.
Other educational systems, such as those in Europe and Singapore, which use English as the medium of instruction, have proven to be successful.
- Teachers are the key to ensuring the success of learning Maths and Science in English. They cannot be blamed for any failure if they are not given proper English proficiency training and, more importantly, school-based training to teach the subjects in English.
Even Maths and Science teachers who are proficient in English may end up teaching the subjects poorly if they are not aware of the linguistic elements involved in learning (especially in simplifying and standardising the language to enable students to comprehend better).
- There is nothing wrong with allowing bilingual or multilingual code-switching in the classrooms or outside if this helps in the learning process.
A gradual move from using English, together with other languages, only for lessons and activities towards more prominent use of the language in its standard form, would work well for both students and teachers.
The generosity of Negri Sembilan royal trusts (Tuanku Ja'afar Educational Trust, Tuanku Najihah Foundation and Yayasan Tunku Naquiyuddin), Yayasan Negri Sembilan, HSBC Malaysia and Hap Seng Consolidated has enabled the successful implementation of the Piers programme to raise the standard of English, Maths and Science in 110 primary schools, involving 340 teachers and 45,000 students in Negri Sembilan and Sabah since 2006.
This year, I am launching a secondary school adaptation programme which will use the same approach, with some improvements. This Secondary English Language Enrichment and Communication Teaching (Select) project aims to help young Malaysians get a quality education and better employment opportunities.
Select employs, supports and manages experienced and qualified native speakers as teachers and consultants to raise the standard of English, Maths and Science in secondary schools.
The first English Language teacher consultant will be based at a school in Kuala Pilah. This person will teach Communication English and collaborate with about 40 Malaysian colleagues and a cluster of six to 10 secondary schools.
The consultant will draw up a training programme to upgrade teachers' proficiency in English, improve teaching methodology and serve as a resource person and adviser to senior teachers.
The first Select project will be funded, again, by the three Negri Sembilan royal trusts, with the support of the education authorities. I am confident Select will be as successful as the Piers project.
I urge those interested, whether from the government or private sector, to consider a nationwide adoption of the delivery mechanism.
Moreover, there is no evidence to show that the use of Bahasa Malaysia will decline if English were to be used as the medium of instruction for the two technical subjects.
Ask the Chinese, Singaporeans, Dutch, Swedes and Germans, all of whom have successfully experienced English and other bilingual mediums of instruction in the education system of their country.
Monday, March 9, 2009
Where are we headed?
No one feels confident anymore. Political impasses, economic uncertainties, stagnant educational system, rising crime, social problems, racial tensions, unemployment etc, you name it. We haven't yet reached the depths of total despair, but looking at the pathetically and hastily prepared flip-flop policies, any fool can see that that day is not too far away. I fear for my kids' future. Where is the sense of responsibility and amanah of these Malay/Muslim leaders who dare take up the mantle of leadership and public service? At such a critical time as this, why haven't we gotten the best of the best in this nation; the educators, economists, experts from all fields to brainstorm, plan and strategize the direction we are going to take in this extremely disastrous and worrying period?
Is the Third Industrial Master Plan still relevant given that our manufacturing sector is taking a beating from the battered economies of the US and UK and even China?
Is the 10 billion ringgit stimulus package enough to help stimulate the economy? What has the previous 7 billion package and bail-out of Valuecap achieved?
The lack of details are not at all confidence-inspiring.
Investing in retraining, upgrading our schools and educational system, infrastructure, job re-creation, manpower development, identifying new growth areas, agricultural self-sufficiency are some of the areas I personally feel are still being neglected.
I don't really know. I'm not qualified to make an educated judgment or offers suggestions, I guess.
But it doesn't take a genius to see and sense we are LOST. And it's scary to be lost in stormy weather.
And I am not alone:
By Tengku Razaleigh From Razaleigh.com:
Dato’ Seri Abdul Hadi Awang’s call for a unity government should be taken seriously.
I appealed for discussions leading to a unity solution last September, when it was already clear that the country is at a dangerous impasse. I said it is time to come together.
The factors I mentioned were:
1. Our political conflicts threaten to deteriorate into constitutional crises.
2. We will be suffering the effects of a global economic crisis on a scale we have never faced.
3. Racial and religious issues, fanned by politics and media incitement, threaten to spiral out of control.
4. The very integrity of the Federation is at stake. The grievances of Sabah and Sarawak cannot be papered-over with political manoeuvres. They are about the fundamental basis of the Federation.
There is a real danger of our falling into a long-term loop of decline, with job losses, crime, social conflict, institutional breakdown and political instability feeding upon each other.
Our problems are fundamental, and must be faced immediately. But BN cannot do this alone
Such problems have been accumulating for decades. They cannot be fixed with a mere change at the top because Umno, in its present undemocratic, patronage-driven form, is part of the problem. MCA and MIC and Gerakan are in tatters and the BN system has broken down. The negotiated power-sharing arrangement which held the Alliance and the Barisan Nasional together has stopped working, not merely from the failure of one or two individuals, but for structural reasons. But this arrangement is what gave BN its electoral success, underwrote our claim to represent the major communities of Malaysia, and ensured political stability. This breakdown is a serious matter. We have known no other system since Independence.
With the very basis of the BN in question, we cease being able to win elections and find ourselves taking increasingly desperate measures to stay in power.
As UMNO drifts farther from the Malaysian mainstream, the temptation to find support in racial and religous sentiment grows. There will be a tendency to maintain power by with the instruments of state. Such actions achieve victory without confidence, power without legitimacy. They undermine the legitimacy of the government and of key institutions such as the police and the judiciary. They undermine the rule of law. Lately even the sanctity of Parliament has been dishonoured. As a government loses legitimacy the only instruments left to it will be those of brute power.
The culmination of the “transition plan” next month will not magically set us on the path to restoration either. That device for avoiding the renewal of leadership has turned Umno’s elections process into a twice extended year-long public spectacle in the procurement of positions, with more than a thousand reports of corruption and abuse now buried without further ado. The winners of the coming party elections in March may find themselves lacking legitimacy in the eyes of public if they think they have thereby won the right to become government leaders.
The results of the last elections speaks of the rakyat’s desire for change, but for peaceful change led by a government that has the confidence of the people. They ask for a halt to the thievery and social rot of corruption, they seek unity and peace, a brighter future for their children and tangible improvements in their lives.
The BN is unable to address such needs amidst the historic challenges of this time, but neither is the Opposition which, although it has some capable people, is a raw, tenuous association of ideologically opposed parties often bound by little more than their opposition to BN.
BN has the numbers in Parliament to hold onto the federal government without reaching out to the Opposition, but without some kind of a unity government solution, at least in the interim, the Malaysian rakyat will not have a government that can do more than hang on grimly to a deteriorating status quo. The foundations of our stability, and of our previous success, are eroding fast, and will soon be gone. After we have drifted past a certain point — and we have drifted for awhile now — we may wake up to find ourselves in freefall.
With an epic economic crisis, failing institutions, pervasive and institutionalised corruption, increasing crime, the deteriorating employability of our graduates, growing joblessness and the erosion of the rule of law, with increasing hardship among our people, we need to do more than coast down to a failure that we can already forsee. We need to come together to chart a better path. That must begin with a leap beyond our bankrupt politics, made by party leaders and elected representatives of the people who rise to statesmanship.
This, roughly, is the case for a government of unity.

